The fucking play was FUCKING AMAZING! (I used swears to emphasize that, but it couldnt do it enough). No, seriously, it was fucking awesome. Everyone was really funny. We didnt mess up lines at all. Tech was amazing! It was awesome. Thanks all for coming, and i feel bad for the people who couldnt come, it was a big loss for you. LLysa-i love you!

what a weekend. I babysat christine for two of the four days of the weekend. Thursday and friday were kind of a blur. I forgot mostly everything that happened. But i do remember hanging out at Grande jakes with kristin, katie, yenny, and danielle and then shopping. I learned some of the tap dance, bought a new track jacket, and thats all i can remember.

Saturday- Hung out with christine at the house, went to palombi's play, went to grayslakes play with the fabulous kristin, then went to the movies with christine and AJ. Palombi-tisk tisk, i feel bad that their program has to rebuild its self from the beginning. Grayslake-Snaps to you guys. It was truly awesome. Andrew did awesome. I didnt want to say it, but he was really good. Hes changed alot from what i could tell. Their play had some awesome technical work too. I thought it was fricken awesome. Saw 2-that was some fucked up shit. Not worth seeing. It was 2 hours of gore and sick twists. Personally, i thought it was lame. but others really enjoyed it.--------So basically, in one day i earned two thespian points. YEAH!!!! (thanks kristin for taking me to the play. i was really happy that you asked.)

Sunday- Went to SEARS to go get family pictures taken for my moms bday present. Went to red lobster. Came home and slept around. Watched movies. Etc.

Monday- Happy bday mommy! I had to practice with hoolie for the talent show and then we tried it. it was horrible. truely horrible. all on my part ofcourse.

Tuesday-Nothing. Fell asleep in my classes and got a shit load of homework. yippy.

Tomorrow- WICKED FIELD TRIP TOMORROW!!!! ITS GOING TO BE FANTABULOUS!

A retarded kid asked one of my friends if i was gay, and if i was how did i know, and did i need a bf to decide if i was gay, didnt i need to have sex, and did he know if i was a top or bottom.............................................Fucking RETARD! im sure most of you can guess who that was. I would like to know why he wanted to know what position I was. I want to go up to him tomorrow and just be like "For future reference...im a bottom...." That should be nice. (dont ask me if that position is right, because i prolly wont tell you.)

I hate parents who claim to be religious and then they hate homosexuals and are very bigot to them. What a way to prove the stereotype of christians being hippocrits. Whatever.

HARRY POTTER COMES OUT FRIDAY! Im such a dork, my background on my phone is harry potter. what a nerd i am.

tear.

LONG AWAITED PICTURE UPDATE.

Last LCHS home game

Pictures for my spanish book

Home Coming

Working Out

My dad dressing up like ICP for a costume party that him and my sister went to.

I miss her so much. I miss my real sister. I miss my sister who was so happy. I just miss my best friend. Ive been sobbing for hours.  "Tracie, you know that when your brother knows that you're unhappy, his world shatters..........?" Thats what my mom said. and she hit it right fucking on the dot. I can't stand knowing that my sister is unhappy. She was best friend, and now she just doesn't care. And i want to know so badly what it is that made her so bitter and so closed, what made her that girl that she is today. If only she could see what we use to have, what life was like when she wasn't  depressed all the time, when she wasn't closed up inside, when she wasn't dark and cold. What the hell happpened?!?!?! Thats all I can think of right now..........where is she? is she even still in there?!?!? And, she told me that she wasnt happy in this house, that she doesnt like it here and she is depressed and cries all the time. Yet she won't tell me the problem so we can fix it? who does that???? If you knew that you could make the problem better by just saying what it was, then why wouldnt you do it????!?!?!

Guys my heart hurts. I feel like something is missing there. I know alot of people say that metophorically and meaninglessly, but i really feel it. I feel the emptyness and lack of life.

Go ahead and say that you all think im an over dramatic kid who has everything and has no reason to be crying because your life is worse and blah blah blah. Well, i agree, your life might be worse..... but i've lost my sister and she is the world to me.

Honestly, i can tell you one of the reasons why she is the way that she is.... its because there is this bitch mom in the back of the neighborhood that would go to the bus stop and tell my sister that she is a slutt, a whore, an ugly fat bitch, a fat ass, and that our mom is a fat ass bitch.....guess what! my sister was in 4th through 6th grade when that fucking happened. For three years that bitch did that. Then she would call the school and say that my sister was horrible and that my sister was beating up her daughter at the bus stop and lie about things like that, so then my sister was labeled as a deviant by everyong at her fucking school. And then, When that lady found out that my parents had had a devorce, she told one of the other neighborhood ladies who my mom is freinds with "well, if i would have known that they had gotten a devorce, i would have been a little nicer to tracie" ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?! why would you be mean like that to a fourth grader in the first place?! I guess tracie gave up doing the right thing because she would be labeled as a deviant anyways and be punished for it, so she might at well give into the lable anyways. I think im going to egg that ladies house tonight just because she is the reason for me crying 1/5 of my tears tonight.

Fuck all of you who would do something like that. Fuck you, fuck you and your family.

I could go for a good drawing right about now, but i have to study for 4 tests.